Andy Wood’s Girlfriend Clarifies Chris Cornell Criticism: ‘It Still Makes Me Sad’

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Late Mother Love Bone frontman Andrew Wood’s girlfriend Xana La Fuente posted a blog a few days ago on Xanaland that was very critical of Chris Cornell and his recent Temple of the Dog performances. She later deleted the blog, and posted the following on Facebook. She has now sent the Xanaland blog to Alternative Nation to clarify her initial comments.

I would like to publicly apologize for calling Chris Cornell a chode. For the people who this has reached, if you care for a further explanation here it is, if not and you just want to be mad then you are as childish as I was for my emotional response. What is sad to me is that I have been writing and built this website 5 years ago and and all the grunge stories are really just bait to get people to notice all the new bands I write about. It has worked and there have been countless people who discovered Walking Papers, Ten Miles Wide, Ayron Jones, and realized how amazing Shawn Smith is, all from watching my YouTube channel. I tell people who email me and ask about my past, “I don’t answer questions about this in messages etc.” please go to the blogs. It may sound harsh but I am always afraid of saying something bad or something getting taken out of context. We call people chodes all the time on my Facebook and we “roast” all kinds of people. I roast myself! Why else would I have an alter ago who’s a monkey named Sancho? If this Chris Cornell issue had stayed within my demographic so to speak then by now I would have forgotten about it. We rant and then its over. However this got out, I just wish some of the great pieces I’ve written on new local bands was shared all over, but I guess that’s the internet for you. I have not even monetized my site because I want it add free. I will have to do this eventually but what other website do you see with not one add? My handpicked Amazon products which all sales for goes to my non-profit that gives instruments to kids. Kids that I film for free all the time aby the way at the local music schools here in West Seattle. If that does not prove that I am not trying to make money off any of this then I don’t know what else to say, the proof is right in front of people and they still want to believe otherwise.

When Andy wrote and sang Stargazer to me it was special because he also wrote Chloe for me (that was about when I was going to be a stripper to support he and I, and left the place after 1 hour) but obviously having my real name in the song not my stripper for a day name was really flattering and made it extra special. Pretty much all of Apple was our relationship and some Malfunkshun songs. If you don’t know who Malfunkshun is my proof that generally speaking people reading stuff do not know what the background is has been proven in a split second.

Chris and I have had falling outs before. The last time we did, he said something really shitty while we were eating dinner, and we were on our way to the park where we always took our dog Bill. If I brought anyone he would get furious. Her even got mad at me for bringing Jerry Cantrell once. The night he upset me, I got up and left and didn’t tell him. He was looking for me all over and eventually came to my house and we sat up and talked all night.He told me as the sun rose,So are you going to forgive me ? ” and I said yes,He was standing behind me with his arms around me while I was sitting in front of the fireplace on this chase lounge. I said ” Well are you going to forgive me? ” and he said yeah but if you ever do anything like that, take off and leave me worrying about you, I’ll never talk to you again ” . Well I saw him plenty of times after that. I saw him in L.A. I saw him at the houser where we all hung out where all my stuff went missing from. I was pregnant with my son and with my husband who he was really nice to. Her even offered him to use his American Music store discount. I do not know what changed because when the whole divorce happened apparently it was a very ugly scene here in West Seattle. Even the store workers at the grocery store right by his old house where his ex-wife still lives -they still remember the parking lot fights between Chris and his ex wife. I came back here assuming I was golden since she hated me and I figured great he and I can go back to being friends. But apparently something has changed and he wants noting to do with anyone in his family or his old friends. Can’t say I blame his new wife, but it still makes me sad. I didn’t just know him, he was the only person I knew and that I told everything to besides maybe one or two other people. Losing Andy was hard enough. I did not know there was some time limit set on grief now, but Chris singing MLB songs brings it all back up. Leaving my name out felt like something Andy would be upset over so it upset me.

I have a great life in Seattle and I will say it again, I do not get “jealous” that does not even make sense. I live right by Eddie Vedder and we shop at the same grocery store, we both drive Jeep’s and if anything I probably have more “fun” because I can go out and not get hounded! I hear he’s quite the hermit and that is sad. Who would want to get bugged all the time? I cant’ even stand it when I get one message asking me stuff, I can’t imagine how it would feel to have people all over me all the time. I never liked the idea of fame at all. I have a really busy day if anyone has any questions feel free to email me, but please do not expect an immediate response. I have quite had it with this issue. I have apologized, and now I am going back to what I do best working on stuff for the new bands in Seattle who hopefully will never forget where they came from.

Xana also shared an article she wrotes on 25 Years of Grunge. She also recommended The Gross by Ten Miles Wide.

  • WK

    This whole article was a hard read, I never knew until recently that there was any animosity between these two? Very sad because Andy changed my life in many ways, that time in my life was very dark and even with how horrible it was to know his life ended so sadly he inspired me in ways that no one had been able to before! Great music, a lot of respect for that but mostly I always thought about what a good person he was with good intentions! As far as as for Chris I always felt the same, he grabbed the torch and kept going. The temple of the dog was always near and dear to my heart, on the same rotations as MLB in my heart and on my player. Very sad to hear the troubles between the two of them and I was very unhappy to hear stargazer sung at MSG without her name in and it was then that I realized something was up? I thought maybe it was a trademark thing or Xana didn’t want her name used for whatever reason? I hope that she was able to find some peace and closure with chris before he left us because I know in my heart he was a good soul…like his brother Andy! I also hope that people can find it in their hearts to be mindful, loving and respectful as what they write about chris, Andy or of anyone who has left us! Everyone has loved ones, the tragedy and pain obviously may never leave us. I’m not a religious person at all but for Andy, chris, xana, and all the ones who cared and loved them especially the beautiful children I pray for you! WE should all try not to judge and hope that we can all come together with this terrible heartbreaking reality as of late, it’s what they would’ve asked. – Billy K, Smithtown NY

    IT’S A BLOODY SHAME – A.W. 1990

    • Geno Sawyer

      What’s interesting , is that people turn to satire websites and websites that simply share other peoples articles for their information. Knowing Xana personally for years I can tell you she is one of the most honest people I have ever met. She’s also generous to a fault, and has done amazing things for Seattle music. Not only were some of the most powerful songs written about her but she continues to be a muse and continues to support local music in Seattle. I have seen her standing and filming bands for hours. Hand held and is holding the tripod with a heavy camera on it. No one else does that. People use their phone, get in peoples views and maybe take a half minute crappy video. Her YouTube channel Xanaland is literal proof of 5 years of filming. I go to it often and see new and amazing footage of new Seattle music. She works tirelessly promoting the School of Rock, and films for them as well. I know she does it for free, because she offers all the time on social media. I am sure with the death of Chris, she is getting bombarded with all the people that think of Chris, then Andy. She’s the only one left when you think about it-that actually lived with Chris and Andy before they were famous. So what if she called him a chode. Did he not just prove that by his final selfish act of leaving his 3 kids without a father? Suicide is complicated, but it is selfish. Celebrities don’t get a free pass to heaven and a pass on the grief they leave their family. To me, she seems to have had a clear insight that he was not happy. Why else would he leave her name out of a song about her? He was only living with Andy and her when Andy wrote it FOR her. He wrote Say Hello to Heaven and mentions Stargazer. Are we to think he really forgot her name? I agreed with her original post on HER blog. If your going to sing it sing it right.And The Mustache was a hilarious and perfect nickname for him. Everyone thinks so and at least a dozen or so of my won friends started calling him that. She called it on that one. What people don’t know is her ” punishment ” for Chris was to have him perform Peace Train with The Muppets. That would have been brilliant. Her sense of humor is so damn funny and maybe people need more of THAT. In this response, she mentions Ten Miles Wide. They played in LA last night. Seems a responsible website that follows Seattle music would have been there. The singer wrote a song about a night Xana saved his life. When he sings it he says her name loud and proud. Seattle new music scene is full of love and is close knit but not arrogant. I see the guys in Staticland and Ayron Jones as well as some of the old school crowd like Rick Friel who played in Shadow with Mike McCready-they are all warm and friendly and talk to everyone at shows. Chris lost his love for Seattle and he lost his ability to forgive and communicate. And here I thought Duff’s book How to Be a Man was silly. He was right, losing your ego and being humble will keep you alive. Xana seems to have found that, and she’s hugely respected for it. By the way Ten MIles Wide singer did a version of that song for her…In fact I think I’ll head back to Xanaland now….

    • Geno Sawyer
    • Susan Chase

      Beautiful post. BTW, I saw Temple of the Dog in SF and cheered when Chris sang Xana on Stargazer. Who knows why he left it out the first couple of times, perhaps it was out of some sort of respect for her privacy, who knows? But he heard the need for everyone to hear it, and by the 3rd show added it back in. I do not believe there was any real animosity going on, just difficult times and falling out of touch.

      • WK

        I never noticed your reply until now. Sorry n tks Susan =)
        My ticket stub to that show is a treasure.

  • Geno Sawyer

    What’s interesting , is that people turn to satire websites and websites that simply share other peoples articles for their information. Knowing Xana personally for years I can tell you she is one of the most honest people I have ever met. She’s also generous to a fault, and has done amazing things for Seattle music. Not only were some of the most powerful songs written about her but she continues to be a mus and continues to support local music in SEattle. I have seen her standing and filming bands for hours. Hand held and is holding the tripod with a heavy camera on it. No one else does that. People use their phone, get in peoples views and maybe take a half minute crappy video. Her YouTube channel Xanaland is literal proof of 5 years of filming. I go to it often and see new and amazing footage of new Seattle music. She works tirelessly promoting the School of Rock, and films for them as well. I know she does it for free, because she offers all the time on social media. I am sure with the death of Chris, she is getting bombarded with all the people that think of Chris, then Andy. She’s the only one left when you think about it-that actually lived with Chris and Andy before they were famous. So what if she called him a chode. Did he not just prove that by his final selfish act of leaving his 3 kids without a father? Suicide is complicated, but it is selfish. Celebrities don’t get a free pass to heaven and a pass on the grief they leave their family. To me, she seems to have had a clear insight that he was not happy. Why else would he leave her name out of a song about her? He was only living with Andy and her when Andy wrote it FOR her. He wrote Say Hello to Heaven and mentions Stargazer. Are we to think he really forgot her name? I agreed with her original post on HER bog. If your going to sing it sing it right. In this response, she mentions Ten Miles Wide. They played in LA last night. Seems a responsible website that follows Seattle music would have been there. The singer wrote a song about a night Xana saved his life. When he sings it he says her name loud and proud. Seattle new music scene is full of love and is close knit but not arrogant. I see the guys in Staticland and Ayron Jones as well as some of the old school crowd like Rick Friel who played in Shadow with Mike McCready-they are all warm and friendly and talk to everyone at shows. Chris lost his love for Seattle and he lost his ability to forgive and communicate. And here I thought Duff’s book How to Be a Man was silly. He was right, losing your ego and being humble will keep you alive. Xana seems to have found that, and she’s hugely respected for it. I hope the editors of this website see what a mistake they made sharing her personal blog and not sharing all her other articles as she mentioned In fact. I think I’ll head back to Xanaland where life is beautiful….

  • Geno Sawyer

    I’ll post this again and see if it does not get systematically deleted. I edited it so it does not offend this website. What’s interesting , is that people turn to satire websites and websites that simply share other peoples articles for their information. Knowing Xana personally for years I can tell you she is one of the most honest people I have ever met. She’s also generous to a fault, and has done amazing things for Seattle music. Not only were some of the most powerful songs written about her but she continues to be a muse and continues to support local music in Seattle. I have seen her standing and filming bands for hours. Hand held and is holding the tripod with a heavy camera on it. No one else does that. People use their phone, get in peoples views and maybe take a half minute crappy video. Her YouTube channel Xanaland is literal proof of 5 years of filming. I go to it often and see new and amazing footage of new Seattle music. She works tirelessly promoting the School of Rock, and films for them as well. I know she does it for free, because she offers all the time on social media. I am sure with the death of Chris, she is getting bombarded with all the people that think of Chris, then Andy. She’s the only one left when you think about it-that actually lived with Chris and Andy before they were famous. So what if she called him a chode. Did he not just prove that by his final selfish act of leaving his 3 kids without a father? Suicide is complicated, but it is selfish. Celebrities don’t get a free pass to heaven and a pass on the grief they leave their family. To me, she seems to have had a clear insight that he was not happy. Why else would he leave her name out of a song about her? He was only living with Andy and her when Andy wrote it FOR her. He wrote Say Hello to Heaven and mentions Stargazer. Are we to think he really forgot her name? I agreed with her original post on HER blog. If your going to sing it sing it right.And The Mustache was a hilarious and perfect nickname for him. Everyone thinks so and at least a dozen or so of my won friends started calling him that. She called it on that one. What people don’t know is her ” punishment ” for Chris was to have him perform Peace Train with The Muppets. That would have been brilliant. Her sense of humor is so damn funny and maybe people need more of THAT. In this response, she mentions Ten Miles Wide. They played in LA last night. Seems a responsible website that follows Seattle music would have been there. The singer wrote a song about a night Xana saved his life. When he sings it he says her name loud and proud. Seattle new music scene is full of love and is close knit but not arrogant. I see the guys in Staticland and Ayron Jones as well as some of the old school crowd like Rick Friel who played in Shadow with Mike McCready-they are all warm and friendly and talk to everyone at shows. Chris lost his love for Seattle and he lost his ability to forgive and communicate. And here I thought Duff’s book How to Be a Man was silly. He was right, losing your ego and being humble will keep you alive. Xana seems to have found that, and she’s hugely respected for it. In fact. I think I’ll head back to Xanaland where life is beautiful….

  • I don’t have time to read this but it was brought to my attention this morning that apparently people think I have multiple accounts. I assure you all I do not have time. I have 2 Facebook’s one was for Sancho La Fuente that was our beloved Sancho monkey our website mascot, and I do not even remember the password to that account and have not used ot for at least 3 years. I’m not even sure it’s still up. This is the only name I ever use, I don’t ever make up ” user names ” like star girl or whatever. I use my own name. If anyone has any legitimate questions they should email me and not waste their time fighting on here, for life is very short and there’s no time for fussing and fighting! Now, someone get me my tambourine! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qyclqo_AV2M

  • Hi Brett! I hope your doing great! I actually wanted to let you know Ten MIles Wide was in L.A. but I forgot to email you! They had a great show, I sure hope you make it up to Seattle some day to see them and all the other great new Seattle bands!
    Peace and Love~Xana

  • John Russelman

    Calling Chris a CHODE is pathetic, but at least she apologized before he died.

  • John Russelman

    Calling Chris a “Chode” was dumb but she apologized somewhat…Xana, like her or not will always be a historical footnote now that the Man of Golden words has left us for ever. Nice to know Xana can still rely on her old man’s money…Rather than being an almost famous 50 year old groupie that was so close to all the immortals of the Seattle Grunge scene…It all could have been so much different had it not been for Andrew’s OD death…Nice to see Eddie Vedder is still ALIVE with lots of cash.

  • Martha Dellinger-Nass

    If you really care about Seattle music and not sensational tabloid-esque rumors then do an interview with the members of Ten Miles Wide or Jeff Angell! There’s so many great bands and musicians making relevant music in Seattle. The Seattle music of yesteryear is always going to be amazing and influential but the current seattle bands deserve to have the spotlight put on them right NOW.

    If anyone wants to read any interviews from the above mentioned bands/artists or perhaps see some exclusive footage of live events going on in Seattle. Head over to xanaland.com