While many have been reporting unverified and anonymous allegations about Tool and A Perfect Circle frontman Maynard James Keenan’s sexual behavior recently, below is an excerpt from his book A Perfect Union of Contrary Things with Sarah Jensen where he discusses his past consensual relationships with groupies, via the Tool Reddit Page.
“Maynard had never trashed a hotel room, never stalked from the stage in a petulant snit and refused to finish a show. But the lessons of the peyote ceremony and yet another reading of Joseph Campbell hadn’t been enough to stem his becoming a celebrity cliché. The lights and applause were seductive, and Maynard’s success guaranteed that at every tour stop would be willing women, clichés themselves seeking a one-night dalliance with a Grammy-winning rock star.
It happens to almost everybody who suddenly becomes famous. We’re not wired to handle that much attention, but it just seems like the path you’re on, so you go down it. You want intimacy, but you’re in motion. You’re not ready to settle down, so you just follow the sexual thing. Most people fall into chemical addiction, which is harder to get out of. I was lucky enough to fall into a kind of ego addiction. She likes me! She likes the name of the band! She likes what I sing about! And the more you dabble in that, the less chance there is of a relationship. She has no idea who I am. I knew the difference between attention and real connection, but I forgot it for a minute. I didn’t even think about what I was doing. I was just having fun.’
He might prearrange a tryst with the woman in Berlin he’d met the last time he’d passed through, never doubting her interest. And he cavalierly skipped after-show drinks with old friends to prolong a rendezvous with an attractive stranger selected from the Seattle audience the night before. The assignations were consensual, no-strings-attached, seemingly perfect. But the validation was short-lived. ‘You’re left wanting to be wanted for you, and you’re not going to get that with these people,’ he would explain years later. ‘They’re looking for something else, that larger-than-life thing. But you lose track of that and fall victim to your own behavior.’ And in Düsseldorf and Providence, he knew, some exciting someone would be waiting.”
Keenan also wrote in his book, “My biggest concern was to get laid. My priority was to be validated, to be desired. This was my ticket to undo all of the dismissive behavior from family and teachers and the army of people that had ignored my potential. It was my chance to have somebody who I didn’t even know and who didn’t even know me give me everything in a moment, without question. Just surrender. I’d never had that. That power was new.”
Keenan performed at a RAINN benefit concert in 1997 with Tori Amos. The Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network is an American, non-profit anti-sexual assault organization, the largest in the United States.