Actor Playing Chris Cornell In New Film Revealed


British actor and singer Paul Ayres is portraying Chris Cornell in the upcoming television film special Autopsy: The Last Hours Of Chris Cornell. Autopsy: The Last Hours Of… is a docudrama television series that portrays the final hours of celebrities before their deaths.

Ayres shared a photo and wrote, “This time last week I was on set pretending to be someone else. Loved it. Thinking of growing my hair now!!! Autopsy: the last hours of….”

His music and dance talents are listed as, “Aerobics, Ballet, Falsetto, Guitar, Jazz Dancing, Pop Singing, R & B Singing, Rock Singing*, Tap, Tenor Baritone.” He performed on the We Will Rock You UK Tour in 2009. He performed on the Rent 20th Anniversary Tour in 2013.

This will be the first time Cornell will be portrayed by an actor in a film/television project. A character heavily based on Kurt Cobain, who went by the name Blake for legal reasons, was portrayed by Michael Pitt in Gus Van Zant’s 2005 film Last Days, which portrayed Cobain’s final days before he died by suicide at his home in Seattle in April 1994.

Below you can view a photo of Ayres in character as Chris Cornell, followed by his actor headshots.

  • What’s up with the brown contacts? Chris’ eyes were greenish-blue

  • Allison Auld

    I can see it. The long, wavy hair makes a big difference.

    • makingconnections

      He does look like Chris Cornell.

      Who knows, perhaps the docudrama will help bring closure to those who are missing Chris so much and still have so many questions. For some reason I keep thinking of Shakespeare’s “Julius Caesar” and how it was all about his end. So many films and plays are: “Romeo and Juliet”, the movie about Jim Morrison’s life…death is part of life and there’s some reason we watch drama’s that involve loss of life. Perhaps they make us stronger so that when we have to face it in our own families, we’ve experienced it to some degree through these performances.

      I’m just sharing thoughts here, I don’t know what’s right or wrong in instances like this, but I can’t think this is the worst insult to Chris Cornell since he died.

      • Kay B

        Stupid question but did Vicky have to give permission for this show? If she did, my guess would be that the results are also her viewpoint. I’m interested to see what the doc comes up with on this show. I have seen all others episodes and they are pretty good. I saw a magazine cover months ago and it had a new movie coming out as and advertisement. The actor looked just like Chris. It was kind of over whelming how much he looked like him. But I can’t remember the damn actor. Apparently there is a Canadian band called Thornley and some people think the singer looks like him.

        • makingconnections

          I just watched Thornley on UTube and yes, he looks somewhat like Chris but sounds like him too in my opinion. They aren’t very well known but maybe just getting going. I never know what to think about artists that sound so much like another…oh well.

          I don’t know about Autopsy…have never seen it. Do they have the families take part in other episodes? She’d have to be questioned to do any sort of analysis of how it went down on the last night. I can’t help hoping the producers maintain independence from being influenced by anyone except their own people putting the docudrama together. Good luck to them putting an unbiased show together. I don’t know about permission of families….I think an event like the death of a celebrity is in the public domain really and the producers, for their own integrity, wouldn’t want to be controlled by anyone.

          • Kay B

            Actually none of the families have been in the series. It is just the doctor and he has copies of the death cert. and autopsy. Things like that. It does go through their up bringing so I find that interesting as well. The doc seems pretty reasonable and educated to me.

          • makingconnections

            By the way you’re describing it, it sounds medically-based and investigative rather than just a drama. I don’t think a family could stop this sort of thing, once the autopsy became public and all the information was in various media outlets from the beginning. The information is out there. It will be very interesting to see what they come up with to explain certain questions, like why was the phone not checked out rather than just being passed on. Maybe they don’t get into that sort of thing? I’ve always thought that perhaps while we imagine depression to be a factor, it could have progressed into something else, another condition or illness that pushed Chris into a deeper troubled state…or even the prednisone he’d been taking that has some terrible side effects, especially if you aren’t tapered off when you stop taking it.

          • Kay B

            Hey I was just watching the doc “Bowling for Columbine.” I have seen it many times but I was wondering what your local news is like. Michael Moore talked about how a lot of Canadian news doesn’t have nearly the sad news we in America has. Like 8-10 homicides a day typically for Milwaukee news. I live outside of Madison so we don’t have any violence really but Milwaukee news is pretty depressing.

          • makingconnections

            I haven’t watched that movie lately but he does get you thinking that Michael Moore!
            You know for awhile I was addicted to Sally somebody who covered the Casey Anthony trial. I couldn’t stop watched it and I don’t usually get absorbed although I guess it is always something with me…your manner of covering crime in the US is very engaging.
            Here awful stuff happens but it’s not covered in a dramatic way usually…very matter of fact somehow.
            Here’s what comes to mind for murders and violence, just at this moment. Some years ago a young woman from here had a baby at a young age with her boyfriend and they were just getting established in a town near here. He worked at a shop down town and Mom and baby were visiting her Mom for the night. The guy was good looking and cool, they both were and the younger teens seemed fascinated by them. Anyway, a few girls told a guy that the young Dad had tried to molest them…they were all high. He climbed up the side of the building somehow to their 2nd floor apartment and killed the guy with a baseball bat, as he slept. It was sad and horrible and barely covered in the local news or anywhere really. There was a hit a run only a few blocks from here a few weeks ago where a man died and we’ve hardly heard a thing about it.
            What comes to mind to is that we always remember what happened a long time ago in Montreal…Dec. 6, l989, 14 women were killed at an engineering school…Ecole Polytechnique. The killer hated feminists and the whole country talks about it and remembers it especially when talking about gun control. Our laws were changed after that but there’s always pressure to reverse the changes. I don’t know the details of the laws.
            The most grizzly killing, that we did hear so much about took place in 2008 about was the guy who had Schizophrenia and while riding a Greyhound bus, I can’t remember where, in the interior of B.C. I think–maybe Manitoba. He chopped a young guy’s head off and cannibalized him – there was so much shock and black humour over that killing and the guy is now out of jail…not criminally responsible. The awful part of it is that it’s said he lives near the mother of the guy he killed. We are too liberal at times! (Can you imagine being on that bus!!)

          • makingconnections

            I know I didn’t answer your question properly…I turned into a “Tales from the Crypt” person…us Canadians like to tell dark stories late on a Friday night.

          • Nicola

            Let’s hope it doesn’t consist of a shill doctor parrotting VK agenda about “ativan delirum”

          • makingconnections

            I don’t think it will. If it does I will be very disappointed. I think that this show, if well done, could help to put the pieces together so that fans can let go of this whole issue. Vicky Cornell spending less time on social media would help too.

          • Jon Sardis

            In fairness, Ian Thornley is an absolutely incredible musician in his own right. There is certainly a similarity in style with regards to vocals, but in terms of guitar playing he’s in a class of his own – a phenomenal player. He made his name in the band Big Wreck, and Thornley was his solo project between them breaking up and reforming. I’d highly recommend checking out their stuff.

          • makingconnections

            Yes, I watched him and his band last night and they seemed as though they would be a band that would be fun to see live! We need to support those that have that sort of talent. I’ll watch more; he was very engaging and put a smile on my face to know there’s someone out there so strong in their “deliverance”. Thanks for the heads up.

  • Olga Stewart

    So he loved playing a man who ended his life?

    Uh huh.

    This just sounds worse the more I read about it.

    • Karyn 🇬🇧

      I feel the same Olga. The comment he made about wanting to grow his hair was very disrespectful and in poor taste. I still struggle with losing Chris Cornell as I’m sure countless others do. I was lucky enough to meet him and spend time with him and the band over a couple of weekends when they were in London on a few occasions. I met Susan too as we sat in their hotel foyer having drinks and chatting with them after a gig. They were all very humble and generous with their time to two girlie’s who were in ore of them. We went around Camden Market the next day, then later watched Corrosion of Conformity at the old Marquee club. The next day we all went for a Thai meal in soho where Chris sat opposite me. He seemed very aware of people around him and as I was being teased by Kim T calling me Karaan, as in the bible…(not sure on spelling so apologies for my ignorance) instead of Karyn the whole time, which admittedly made my face glow with embarrassment lol, Chris came to my rescue and said ‘give the girl a break’. Jokingly of course. He then lent over the table and said in his gentle voice, ‘ignore him… my nickname is even worse… Frisbee’. I was rather shocked that he even noticed I was there but he seemed to understand that I was very nervous and he kinda put me at ease. I’ve realised over the years that people who suffer mental health problems tend to gravitate to those who are struggling too and this was certainly true in my/this case. I’ll never forget those times and feel honoured and privileged to have met him and the other guys in the band plus the crew etc.. All of whom were complete gentlemen and kept in touch for a few years after. Sending us tickets to see them at Wembley stadium along with Faith No More and Guns and Roses, we even got back stage passes and was allowed to stand on the sound deck whilst Soundgarden were playing. I treasure those moments with all of my heart and always will. I’m sad about this TV program because its all still so raw for so many. It’s far too soon for this kind of show to be broadcast. Just my own opinion though but I certainly won’t be watching it .. It’s still too hard and too painful.

      • makingconnections

        Thank you for sharing your beautiful memories. It’s nice to imagine those days. Lucky you!

        • Karyn 🇬🇧

          Thank you for your kind words. X

      • Olga Stewart

        I am very happy that you got to both meet and spend time with both Chris and the other members of Soundgarden.

        And it sounds like you not only had a great time but it also was both very special and meaningful for you.

        I don’t think I will ever get over the loss of Chris (I haven’t gotten over the loss of both my dad and a couple of my husband’s and my cats). So to see things like this program being created just makes me feel this loss even more. I also feel it is disrespectful towards both Chris’s memory and life.

        Lastly, Chris should be allowed to rest in peace. In fact, he deserves that.

  • DebbieCalifornia

    If Vicky K has anything to do with this travesty you can be SURE that it won’t be based in ANY sort of truth. There’s a REASON he chose what he did and all you have to do is FOLLOW THE BEAK! Yes! I said it and normally I would NEVER say such a thing. She is a god-awful pseudo woman and has NO CLASS! Let’s just hope that Chris’ REAL friends finally speak about the years of abuse he suffered, as well as the way she separated him from those people. Chris wasn’t a mouthy person and allowed her to manipulate him. He just wasn’t a fighter and she took full advantage of that. I KNOW for a FACT that he did get the last laugh. There’s peace in that for those who really cared about him!

    • Nicola

      Agree 100% that VK manipulated CC from day 1, from the arranged “coincidental” meeting VK orchestrated, to the “serendipitous” find of the available apartment in her family’s building inparis. Even in death, she continues to manipulate in her many attempts to convince the public of her agenda
      Could you please explain your statement that he got the last laugh? I would love to believe so.

      • Cynthia Masterson

        All you just sounded like is jealous. You come up with this narrative from any facts? Doubt so. We lost Chris also, yes. But, Vicky and his children lost the love of their lives. Grow up

        • Nicola

          Not even jealous. I just hate to see his character assasinated and her claim that he was a relapsing addict who suicided due to any sort of mental impairment is only deflecting from the truth. I base my opinions on interviews I read or watched and various written public records. I have no respect for VK. Her sham charity financials showed majority of donations did not go to the cause. There’s plenty of reason that I and others have a low opinion of her and her mother. Just check out their social media. VK actions speak for themselves. I would feel the same way about anyone who lived and died under such circumstances, male or female. This has nothing to do with jealousy, and VK is no one I would ever be jealous of.

    • Cynthia Masterson

      You knew Chris personally and all that went on in his life? You know Vicky personally? Wow! You should write a book! Seriously, you and those that “seem to know” everything and anything about Chris Cornell should really get a grip. You can have your “opinion” on what kind of person you think Vicky to be. But, be realistic. He loved her and she loved him. She knew him better than any of his fans. Suck it up.

      • Olga Stewart

        No, Vicky never knew Chris.

        If she did and had she tried to help him, he might still be here.

  • Playin Jane

    Why is Vicky allowing this??!!..and what about Chris’ children,are they ok with it too??

  • Corndog

    I really wish they would just let him rest in peace at this stage. No, i don’t mean the producers of this show. I mean all the people in the comments section that were backseat drivers to this man’s life and marriage.

    You don’t know him. You never knew him. You never will know him. You get a glimpse into his psyche via his lyrics, but that’s all. Stop acting like he was a close personal friend.

    I’m getting really bloody sick of people acting like they were a fly on the wall and knew every intimate details of his marriage. All the crap that you’re floating around here as ‘facts’ are nothing more than your opinion. Sure, I don’t much like his wife either. She seems a little odd, and the whole relationship with the MIL is absolutely bizarre, but Cornell obviously felt something for her or he wouldn’t have left his first wife for her, and wouldn’t have had kids with her either.

    The way some people around here are treating a dead man’s family is sickening. Are there more details of his last moments that we do not know? Is his wife keeping something back? Were they going to divorce? Did an argument with her push him over the edge? Perhaps, but you know what? That’s none of your damn business. Nothing to do with you at all!! Stop trying to act like you knew this man, a complete stranger, better than his own wife did. Whatever the nature of their relationship, their last conversation, whatever, it was between him and his wife and has zero to do with you. It’s been nearly a year, move on. Let the woman be.

    • Bruno Sílvio Martins

      THANK YOU! This right here. Cheers man.

    • makingconnections

      I’m not proud of railing against Vicki Cornell from the very beginning….I thought it would be over by now; I’m especially not proud of anything I’ve said that attacks her personally.

      I have one issue that I feel very strongly about and that’s her pushing her addiction narrative on social media and in our communities. Her opinion impacts people. Addiction and mental illness are so connected and ask any AA member or person in recovery for any sort of addiction and they will tell you it’s a chicken and egg thing. She provokes people like me who have strong feelings about the care and respect that addicts need. No matter what the issue, those that are very new to a situation should do their homework and no be all-knowing immediately. Her public pronouncements should be made with caution. It’s too important an issue to have amateurs leading in any way.

      I said recently on the article regarding the Johnny Cash album that I didn’t think I knew my husband’s mind and visa versa, that sometime opposite’s attract. Actually, I don’t think we every really know another person’s mind–there’s always something held back and I think that’s a positive sign. Lyrics are meant to make us feel something, not always to be taken literally. I’ve never understood why Vicky Cornell spends so much energy describing the great love her husband had for her and how much he loved his family. It’s trauma I suppose. I have never questioned that fact though and should there be an afterlife, I’m sure Chris is watching over them now. He seemed to appreciate and love all of them, the Karayiannis family too. She doesn’t need to try to convince us of the love as she seems inclined to do.

      Whenever I’ve crossed a line in my comments about Vicki Cornell’s narrative it’s because I can’t handle injustice. My brother died 3 years ago and there was so much unfairness involved in his passing…similar in some ways to this. It brings it all back to me. He died due to a medical mistake and it took me a long time to let go of the anger towards those that let him down and re-wrote his life story. Comment at his funeral–Wow, I didn’t know he had so many friends–we should have ordered more food.

      He was my touchstone but lived far away so it was too late before I realized what he was going through and it will be sad forever.

      • Corndog

        I’m very sorry to hear about your brother. I know those might seem like hollow words coming from a stranger online but they are heartfelt and genuine.

        I understand somewhat what it’s like to have an addict in the family. My father is an alcoholic who is currently living in a homeless shelter because we just couldn’t deal with it anymore. He was violent and abusive and resisted all attempts to help him. My mother is in very bad health and just couldn’t deal with his shit anymore. Even now, with his situation being what it is he appears to have no interest in his family, but plenty of interest in as much alcohol as he can get his hands on.

        Horrible as it sounds, and I hate saying it, but it almost feels like I’m going through a period of mourning; like he is already dead. You can only give a person so many chances, and I just can’t do it anymore. If he cared about me he’d at least attempt to stop drinking but he doesn’t.

        • makingconnections

          i understand completely how in order to survive you have to leave some people to find their own way. It is like mourning to have to do that. I was married at a young age to an intelligent and good guy…he was doing brilliant research work, then boom, alcoholism, and we’ve never seen the real him again. He’s in a home now, at a very young age because of hurting his brain. Addiction can be devastating.

          Thanks for your compassion–I know you well enough to know your words are sincere.

          • Corndog

            That’s a terrible shame. Is there any chance he might recover someday?

          • makingconnections

            Never. He has many strokes every day.

          • makingconnections

            I deleted my part of our conversation because a “newbie” commenting in any way on my brother was upsetting. Usually people are respectful of a conversation between two people that is personal but when it’s your first day participating in the discussion and you’re angry…..I know you have to be thick skinned to take part here and I did put my personal experience out there, just as Vicky Cornell does all the time. I have no real right to complain, but I’ve blocked her.

        • makingconnections

          I didn’t express how sorry I am about what you’ve had to go through with your parents conditions. It must have been impacting you even as a child if it’s at this point now. Someone very close to me is doing work with children and trauma and it is important to try to make certain that children in situations with an addicted parent get the support that they need so that the trauma doesn’t effect their health as they grow. If you’re close to your mother as it seems, perhaps she saved you from feeling isolated. You sound balanced in your thinking, very balanced actually!

        • makingconnections

          I’m going to say this then delete it for fear of anyone commenting on our conversation…it’s personal. Please don’t think your father doesn’t care about you if he doesn’t attempt to stop drinking. He’s obviously powerless and lost. They get so deeply lost that all they can manage is try to obliterate their memories, their love, everything that makes them human so that they don’t have to feel the shame. I know more than I wish I’d ever have to learn about addiction and most addicts have families that they love deeply. He could recover, but it the meantime you’re all better off not to look at it any longer.

        • makingconnections

          Don’t, by my deleted my posts, think that my brother was an addict, I was speaking of my first husband who was a brilliant man, a scientist who had work published and then it all collapsed because of alcoholism. We all lost so much when the real him disappeared.

          My brother died because of an error in medication…being given the wrong drug intravenously to treat Crohn’s Disease…a massive amount that put him into a coma, gave him a brain fungus and caused months of suffering when he woke up, only to die.

          ‘m at peace in my day-to-day life, but when you watch a loved one suffer like that it marks your life. There’s before the passing and after….there’s a sort of loss of innocence or an awareness of both how dark things can become and how beautiful life is, both at the same time.

          This is the trouble with deleting posts, but I write this for those who are wondering .

      • Cynthia Masterson

        Why is Vicky’s opinions on addiction amateur to you? She was married to one. At least she IS bringing the subject out in the public for discussion. I think it is a good thing since it is not discussed enough. Her opinions on the subject, she has a right to them. Why do you care so much that she talks about the love Chris had for her and his family? For someone that just stated that you were surprised that so many tried to rewrite your brother’s life, it is ironic that you have so many opinions and comments towards Vicky Cornell, someone you do not know at all. Your comments are not factual, they are your opinion which you are entitled to but, seriously try not to be such a blatant hypocrite. As far as the Johnny Cash cover written by Johnny Cash, it really has nothing to do with Vicky and Chris as a couple.

        • makingconnections

          I see that you’re new to this party. If you weren’t, you’d know that I don’t get into discussions with people that attack me personally.

        • Olga Stewart

          If this is Chris’s brother, then I think you should have respect for him.

          You want respect for Vicky.

          Well then Peter deserves the same.

          And like you, he is entitled to his opinion (whether you like it or not).

          Oh, and Peter did know Chris. In fact, he knew him for all of his life. And the reason for that is that he was his brother.

          • makingconnections

            She’s referring to my brother Olga…which is horrible for me. I was discussing his passing with Corndog and she interjected in an attempt to correct my thinking. I deleted my comments and will not put such personal stuff out there again. Usually it’s O.K. and people are respectful.

          • Olga Stewart

            She what?

            I am very sorry that she did this to you, as neither you nor your brother deserved that.

            Perhaps you should report her?

            And she can’t know what you went rhough. Only you can.

            So how dare she do what she did.

            Yes, I defend my friends. And I always will.

          • makingconnections

            Yes, you do. You have a devoted and grateful heart Olga and it’s nice to be in touch with you so often. Actually, I try to be more like you in day-to-day life because you always say thank you. Your time isn’t wasted; you’re a fine example to all of us.

          • Olga Stewart

            Thank you for your very kind words, as they do mean a lot to me.

            But you really need to thank my dad because this is the sort of person he was in regards to both being thankful and kind.

            I get the bluntness from my Mom. And at times, it isn’t always a good thing. But she did teach me to stand up for myself. So I am grateful to her for that, regardless of how things turn out.

            Also, I think you are a pretty fine person yourself. :).

          • makingconnections

            Thank you Olga….I feel like I know you better than many people I see in person in my life!

          • Olga Stewart

            You are most welcome. :).

          • makingconnections

            What do you think is worse? Brett putting up the latest talking points from Vicky Cornell and not being able to comment on them, or being able to comment on them. Either way, her words drive me completely up the wall!

          • Olga Stewart

            I think putting the articles up to begin with, knowing that they are going to generate comments out of pure emotion (usually negative where Vicky and her family are concerned) is the probably the worst of it.

            But if you are determined to do that, then I think it’s only fair that you let people have their say on the articles.

            Otherwise, don’t post them at all.

          • makingconnections

            I agree Olga….another one up today that “reveals” another performance and comments shut down. It’s unfair.

          • Olga Stewart

            And it’s only these articles that Brett does this to.

            Not the rest.

            That makes it even more unfair.

          • Olga Stewart

            I am so very sorry that she did this to you.

            Neither you nor your brother deserved this.

            And I have given her an earful.

            And this is just a suggestion but perhaps report her (in case, she does this to someone else)?

          • makingconnections

            She didn’t attack my brother Olga, just suggested that I should be smarter because of what I went though with his passing. Still, she’s an extremely off-putting character and I’ll be glad when she crawls back under the rock she crawled out from under.

          • Olga Stewart

            I would like to say something but it would be both very rude and inflammatory.

            So I will refrain.

            But people like that I do my damn best to stay the hell away because they are nothing but trouble.

        • Olga Stewart

          You attacked makingconnections’s brother?

          How dare you.

          You know nothing about both makingconnections and her life. And therefore, you have no right to judge.

          Perhaps when you are perfect, you can judge. But you aren’t. You are just someone who doesn’t seem to understand that not everyone experiences things the same way as you. And also just because they don’t think and do things the way you do, then they are wrong.

          I feel very sorry for you because your ‘tunnel thinking’ doesn’t allow you to see anything beyond your nose. And so that makes your world limited and perhaps quite lonely.

          But that still doesn’t give you the right to attack others.

          So back the hell off!

    • makingconnections

      This reaction doesn’t just happen for no reason at all Corndog. It takes two to tangle and Vicki Cornell has been provocative and continues to be so. She’s making it worse for herself and her family. That’s been my main point in so many posts. How will she find peace, pleading her case on social media forever? Those that don’t like her approach will never change, but if she’d find another avenue to do her life’s work, she may eventually find the peace that we all spend our whole lives looking for. Actually, I wish that for her.

      • Corndog

        I just don’t think it’s right to continually attack the woman when none of us really know what went on behind closed doors. It’s not our place to question their marriage. That’s just not our business. Like I said, I’m not overly fond of her either but obviously Cornell was, at least at some point.

        As for her constant internet presence, well who knows? It’s damn odd but perhaps that’s just her way of grieving. If people don’t like what she has to say they should just rise above it and ignore her.

        • makingconnections

          I like this site, and don’t like to criticize Brett, but in this case I think he’s partly to blame for the ongoing harshness towards Vicky Cornell. He posts the same Instagram words from her or articles such as the Johnny Cash piece over and over again, knowing full well what the response will be. There aren’t so many attacking Vicky Cornell, but still….he posts something that he knows will provoke a certain group, me included and then: “You lousy Bitches, you’re attacking Vicky and her family again…I’m closing comments.” It’s somewhat of a game in my opinion.

          I hope I was clear that I don’t have an opinion about her marriage…I care very much about her effort to control the narrative and leave out the mental illness aspect of his passing.

          • Corndog

            I understand that Brett is just trying to get clicks, this is how he makes his money after all, but I agree. Enough is enough. It’s been a year now and there has been no let up in the articles about Cornell’s family.

            Yes you were very clear. My comments weren’t directed at you. I would consider your opinion on addiction etc to be quite separate and distinct from an opinion on their marriage.

            I hope you don’t think I was getting at you.

          • makingconnections

            Haha, even if you were, I’d still call you a friend. Once people have me on their side, they have me forever.

          • Corndog

            That’s so nice, thank you:) I also like to consider you a friend. Folks like you, Olga, Kay and Trovoid are why i keep coming back to this site. It has never been about the articles but rather the people that you meet here!

          • Olga Stewart

            Aw but thank you.

            And that’s very kind of you to say. :).

            Oh, and I feel the same way about you, makingconnections, KayB, and Trovoid. *big smile*

          • Corndog

            No worries Olga:)

          • makingconnections

            I probably did comment on their marriage in the early days of this time of grief…I try not to…but I am one of the bitches, let’s face it!

          • Corndog

            You’re most definitely not a bitch MC. You’re one of the most pleasant people i have ever met on this site.

          • makingconnections

            Thanks Corndog. It is the internet thing that brings out another side to us sometimes. I have been relentless in being on Vicki’s case, and I have been a bitch, considering how I am in my personal life. I stay out of other people’s business unless they need me. There’s a strange dynamic on the Internet, but what would I do without my friend’s here?

          • Corndog

            Yes it can do that alright. I think it’s the anonymity that makes people sometimes say things online that they’d never dream of saying in real life. I still don’t think you’re a bitch though:)

          • makingconnections

            I just listened to the Scott Weiland interview with Howard Stern and he says that in the internet age everyone’s a journalist and he wrote his book so that people would know who he was.

          • Corndog

            I think I would have said critic or pundit instead of journalist, but I get his point.

            Have you read his book? I don’t think I’ve ever read an autobiography or biography. I used to devour fiction when I was younger but I don’t seem to have the necessary level of concentration to read these days.

          • makingconnections

            That’s true, but the effect that comments and articles can have on musicians and artists of any sort must feel similar to what journalists critiquing in former times must have felt like.

            I’m going to be a psychiatrist now rather than a journalist and tell you what I’m thinking this morning after hearing about Vicky Cornell and Dr. Drew appearing on TV next week to address addiction. Why is the mental illness aspect of this loss ever addressed? So many men, so many boys don’t get the help they need because they aren’t encouraged to seek help. Men often take their lives due to dramatic quarrels because they haven’t learned to cope with their emotions. Medications are an issue because people have problems and medicate themselves. Why do the talking heads tend to go to the result of the problem, addiction, without acknowledging that the teaching in recovery is all about dealing with your emotions. There’s so much that is left out of this conversation and it’s important stuff.

          • Corndog

            I think that if it was me, i wouldn’t have any choice but to take it personally, but that is just the sort of nature that i have. I imagine that a stronger person could probably just laugh it off, especially if they are reasonably successful regardless of any bad press.

            I tend to avoid the Cornell articles for the reasons that i mentioned the other day, so i have no idea who Dr. Drew is. Is that some sort of TV celebrity doc, kind of like Dr. Phil? I also have no idea about what has been discussed around the mental health aspects of all this, so i can’t really answer your question. I have some issues myself (similar to Trovoid, it’s actually scary how similar we can be) and i have just had to learn to cope with them as best i can myself over the years. Took me a very long time, but i’m just about managing, although it is a constant struggle. The doctors here have been of no help at all. One suggested that i ‘buy a self help book on Amazon’ rather than offer any help whatsoever. I honestly think that i could benefit from some sort of medication to help me deal with the anxiety and stress that i feel constantly. I feel like i spend my entire life in ‘fight or flight’ mode, and it is starting to take it’s toll on me physically.

          • makingconnections

            Sorry to trying to get you to talk about the issues of “you know what”, as my daughter used to say. I was showing my obsession over this.
            I didn’t realize your situation was as it is…not completely anyway. I wish I could be of help to you….if we were closer I could advocate for you I believe. It seems that conditions can get entrenched if you just cope for so long and general practitioners make me angry when they barely touch on a person’s health and send them out the door. It’s very difficult to find a competent doctor….I’ve found one, but she’s booked up for two years and has people from 500 miles away coming to see her to have her help them with pain. The sooner you try to get some real help, maybe by looking in some directions you haven’t thought of, changing things little by little but going in the right direction. A very small amount of change in daily habits that are healthier can yield real results it seems. Don’t give up on yourself and don’t give up on seeing some sort of doctor that will hear you and walk with you.

          • Olga Stewart

            Buy a self help book?

            What utter rot.

            And like makingconnections said, I hope that there is some way you can find some place that can listen to you, support you, and give you the help that you deserve.

          • Corndog

            Yeah. I was dumbstruck when he said it. Sure, our health service is free, but it’s crap most of the time.

            Thanks very much Olga:)

          • Olga Stewart

            You are most welcome. *big smile*

            And the doctor needs a self help book: ‘How not to be a dick towards your patients’

          • Corndog

            To rub salt in the wound, I had to wait over a month to get an appointment in the first place!

          • Olga Stewart

            Man, oh man!

            You could have listened to how many albums during a month?

            And to be honest, it probably would have helped you more than that doctor did.

          • Corndog

            I’ve lost all faith in the health service here. I’ve been having some issues with my guts this last while back and I’m concerned I might have the same condition that my mom has but I just can’t be bothered going through the process of making an appointment. I know I really should though as it seems to be getting worse.

          • Corndog

            I’ve lost all faith in the health service here. I’ve been having some issues with my guts this last while back and I’m concerned I might have the same condition bad my mom but I just can’t be bothered going through the process of making an appointment. I know I really should though as it seems to be getting worse.

          • makingconnections

            Can you go to “Emergency”?

          • Corndog

            Yeah i suppose i could, but that would mean a minimum wait of 4 hours sitting in the emergency room, only for them to tell you in the end that you need to see you GP anyway so that they can make an appointment with a specialist!

          • makingconnections

            I read quite a lot but nothing like I did at one time. I don’t inhabit any other sites but this one and read newspapers on line–it still takes up time that would have been reading time before.
            I’m noticing that lots of new parents are having their children only read books, no TV, no video games–it amazes me and I’m looking forward to seeing how these children develop. We have quite a counter-culture movement where I live and I must admit to admiring the efforts that I see being made in different areas. There are schools around here that have waiting lists where most of the work is done outdoors. This kids have elaborate outdoor gear and packs and every subject is approached by including the natural world. It’s very interesting!

          • Corndog

            I really wish that i could read like i used to. When i was young, i would regularly start a book in the evening and just sit up all night until such times as i’d finished it. When the other kids were out playing ball you would normally find me sitting in my room with my nose buried in a novel or a comic. I miss it, but i just can’t seem to concentrate anymore. When i try i find myself reading the same paragraph over and over again as it just doesn’t sink in.

            I have not experienced what you’re describing above about kids, but it doesn’t sound like such a bad thing. Kids spend so much time these days staring at screens these days. I don’t think that i would agree with taking their tech away completely, but i would love to see them reading more. My own son absolutely loves a story, but i cannot for the life of me get him to read a book. It frustrates me because i know that once he gave it a go he would really enjoy it.

            Outdoor schools? That’s awesome! We don’t really have the weather for that here though. The poor wee buggers would be freezing:) I actually saw a report on the news last night about some warm water current that travels from south to north, and keeps Ireland and the the UK much warmer than our latitude on the globe (flat earth my ass:) ) should really allow, but apparently it is slowing down and they think that it is going to get a lot colder here. It’s a little concerning.

          • makingconnections

            It’s colder than it used to be here too and hotter in summer. Climate change is affecting temp. of the water and we have California fish here on the BC Coast, between that an the bloody fish farms, we worry for our wild salmon stocks. What will all the bears feast on and the tourists come to watch whales and bears…we’re all so connected.

            Yes, the pendulum always swings too far one way or the other…the kids are enjoying being outside and it does get cold so I imagine they aren’t out all the time in winter…it’s a rain forest here so they do know how to handle rain. My husband is outdoors all the time…he’d rather be there than in. If I talk to him when he’s outdoors in the daytime, he say: “Can this wait, I’m running out of daylight”.

            They say our brains our changing because of computer time. That’s partly why reading isn’t so easy and also we’re all so anxious it seems and that makes it difficult as well. Everyone I know is anxious, truly!

            I’m going to delete my personal posts after you’ve read them.

          • Corndog

            I was going to reply to your other post when I had more time to properly reflect on it, but suffice to say, thanks for your advice and support. It’s much appreciated. You really are a very nice person MC. Your husband’s a lucky guy:)

            I’ve had issues with anxiety all my life and since an early age I learned to try and keep it inside and secret for fear of the embarrassment if anyone ever found out how I was really feeling. You could be looking at me and I’m smiling at you, but on the inside I feel like I’m crawling out of my skin and I just want to run away. I feel like that all the time. Anxiety is something that never goes away for me. There are days my heart is beating so fast that I’m convinced I’m going to have a heart attack. Being around people in work all day is incredibly hard for me. The only time I ever feel truly like myself is when I’m alone.

          • makingconnections

            Hi Corndog…..I’m so sorry about the anxiety. I’ve had some episodes, but nothing like the daily awfulness that you’ve experienced. There is something to help you out there and it upsets me that you haven’t received help it doesn’t seem. I remember seeing a woman on television who was Irish…probably in her 50’s or around that age, who had been abused as a child (Church-related) and she was agoraphobic and deeply troubled for most of her life…then she got real help for anxiety and her various conditions. She’s sharing her message I believe. Maybe you could get some idea of what centers there are that she’s connected with. She seemed straightforward and not at all about church issues or religion. It was all about not letting emotional illness run your life. I prefer that term rather than mental illness actually, it’s always about the emotions You need to be connected to people who care, not just have a 20 minute session with a doctor…and I agree, there probably is a medication that could help you cope. You deserve that! I’ve been seeing people that I don’t see often and they seem to look younger and I ask what they’ve been doing….I’m always thinking diet or exercise…nope….it’s the storefronts that we have everywhere now that Marijuana is legalized and the people dispensing products are knowledgeable and helpful and cautious, so far anyway. Take as little as possible to help you seems to be the advice, but no one is getting high, just feeling better. It’s very encouraging. Actually I don’t know if it’s even truly legalized yet, but it’s so close that companies are jumping onto it I think.
            I’m glad you have some comfort when you’re alone…for some that’s the worse time and they need to be talked down from getting really frightened. Re the beating heart…Magnesium is really helpful…read about dosages. Maybe you already take it. I know how fear can take you to some awful places….sometimes with a migraine, I’m sure I’m having a stroke because of numbness and all the aura stuff and a few times “Emergency” doctors have thought so too…but no, just stupid Migraine. I think it’s hyperventilation because of fear of the pain contributing, but Migraine causes the same symptoms, so between the two…I’m pretty worked up!
            It’s funny that you would say my husband’s a lucky guy. I don’t know if we ever really appreciate who we have in a marriage..I’m a little cynical about it because I think it’s so good to have someone to love, but it’s difficult too. I see my husband’s face when guys who “get me” say: “Wow, you have an amazing wife.”, because I’m zany, and talkative and I care…but I’m not everyone’s “cup of tea” and lots of times I’m not his. I’m too much for him. He said he was attracted to me because I could talk to anyone and he’s a little withdrawn and that he thought I could talk for both of us….big mistake…haha!! I think he is a man’s man and liked the way I looked, and visa versa. We’ve been together a long time and it’s pretty amazing really. There are so many things we can’t talk about because he’s a conservative and I’m definitely left-leaning. Somehow neither of us has wanted to be anywhere else and probably there’s more devotion than we recognize in daily life. He’s very focused and does not get anxiety…you just keep busy and boy is he busy! I get him in many ways; he likes it to be simple, doesn’t want any fussing or interrupting his work, but he’s generous, an amazing mentor to younger people and if I twist his arm he gets into supporting our children completely on anything they want to pursue. Oh, and get this, he doesn’t like music. Who doesn’t like music? The only music event I can drag him to is a Country and Western singer or a Cowboy Poet or a Musician-Comedian sort of thing…and I suffer through it. When he hears my music blaring he shakes his head and stays out of that part of the house. It’s all quite bizarre and funny.
            Take care, you very important person and expand your thinking on what sort of help might be out there. When you’re not feeling well it’s hard to be hopeful, but I’m hopeful for you. You’re discouraged and no wonder, but still, look around.

          • Olga Stewart

            I so identify with the second paragraph of your comment here.

            Of course, it doesn’t help when your co-workers play crappy music all day, huh? :(.

          • Corndog

            Do you have similar issues Olga?

            Oh god…the music is like mental torture. Katy Perry, Taylor Swift; all that vacuous horseshit. Honestly, should I live to be 100 years old I’ll never understand the appeal of music ( using the term loosely here) like that at all!

          • Olga Stewart

            I suffer from depression, panic attacks, social phobia, and OCD.

            I haven’t been out of this apartment since CHRISTMAS EVE. And I don’t really feel bothered by that.

            But I know my counsellor probably does wonder why I’m doing this.

            And I know my husband would like to see me go out from time to time.

            So yes, I do both understand and identify with what you are going through.

            I admire you for not bashing their music player in with a stapler or something like that.

            I know I probably would have tried to do so.

          • Corndog

            I saw a counsellor briefly about 20 years ago and was told I had depression and social anxiety disorder which led to panic attacks, but there was never any sort of treatment offered. Just a little advice and then sent on your way again. Doctors here seem incredibly reluctant to prescribe any medication for emotional or mental issues. I think if I lived in America I would have been given medication and then been able to lead a ‘normal’ life, but I just can’t seem to get any support here.

            Always nice to know there are folks like yourself out there who understand though. I totally get where you’re coming from about not leaving the house since Christmas. If I didn’t have to I don’t think I’d ever leave the house. Glad that it’s not getting you down too much though, and hopefully you’re feeling ok in general. Perhaps one day we’ll both learn to cope a little better!

            In work I get my passive aggressive revenge by playing the heaviest music I can find on my iPod as loud as possible through headphones. It pisses them off but they deserve it for making someone listen to Taylor Swift:)

          • Olga Stewart

            I am very sorry to hear about the situation there in regards to seeking help for mental health issues.

            It must be both do disappointing and disheartening knowing that you would like to get help but you can’t.

            And I do wish it was something that the medical professionals there would address.

            I am doing fine. But yes, there are days where I feel a little down. But I usually snap out of it pretty quickly.

            But in the case of not going out, it’s not just because of my weight but it’s also that people stare at me here. Even when I was thin, they were doing it. And I just don’t know how to deal with that.

            Of course, there are also the panic attacks and such. And while it doesn’t happen too often, it still does happen. And my response is to get out of there as fast as I can.

            Also, I live in a town that is full of rednecks. So I stick out like a sore thumb (since I’m not like most of these people).

            Lastly, outside of going to an appointment or to my husband’s Mom’s and stepdad’s house, there really isn’t anywhere else in this town that I would like to go.

            I’m glad that you are able to get through the work day by being able to both play and listen to the music that you like. And who cares if they don’t like it? If you have to be bothered by their music, then they can be bothered by yours. *BG*

          • Corndog

            May i ask for what reason you think that they are staring at you? I only ask because i often think that everyone in a room or street or whatever are staring at me, but i have learned over the years that it is just the self conscious anxiety that i am feeling that is making me feel like that.

            I’m sorry you’re having such issues with where you live Olga. I thought that rednecks were an American’s phenomena. Would you ever consider moving to another town, or perhaps coming back to NI?

            Try not to let it all get you down too much. I’m willing to bet that you’re worth twice what those people staring are worth. If you ever need anyone to talk to, then you have me and the rest of the folks here:)

          • Olga Stewart

            I think they share because I am so different from them.

            And also because I don’t think they know any better.

            Moving isn’t an option.

            So I will just have to learn to deal with this

            Thank you for your kind words, as they do mean a lot to me. :).

          • Corndog

            Just try to not let them bother you Olga. Rise above it if possible. I know that it can be hard when you feel like you’re the centre of attention (at least it can for me) but just try to remember that you’ve done nothing wrong and it is in actual fact them that are doing something odd or wrong by staring at you in the first place.

            I also find that i can sometimes feel better by talking it through inside my own head. So i’d be like – that person is staring at me and it is making me feel uncomfortable. Does it really matter though? Do i actually care what that person thinks about me or anything else? Chances are that person is just as anxious and unsure of themselves as i am, and is standing there right now going through their own list of issues in their own head. I keep telling myself this kind of thing until i can accept that they are just as messed up as i am and are probably too preoccupied with their own problems to really care about me. It may not be true, but i find that thinking like this can help me when i’m out in public. I really don’t like being out in public, especially if there are a lot of people around, and this helps me cope to a certain degree. Maybe you can adapt it somewhat and make it work for you too?

            I really hope that is of some use to you. You’re a really nice person and i’d hate to think that you were feeling like you’re being singled out when you’re out and about.

          • Olga Stewart

            The one place where I feel like I can be myself when I’m outside is this park that is down the road from I am.

            So when I am able to, I will go there.

            I’ve just always felt at home both near the water and in the woods.

            And thank you for your advice, as it’s most appreciated. Also, I will try to make use of it.

            Lastly, you are a very nice person yourself. And you also deserve to be both happy and to feel peace. :).

          • Corndog

            I honestly never feel 100% like myself unless i’m home alone. It’s nice that you have that place to go to, and you should avail yourself of it whenever you feel able.

            I’ve never really been much of an outdoors type. Way too much nature in nature:) I’m really scared of bugs; spiders in particular, so i’m always wondering what is going to try to bite, sting eat or otherwise freak me out!

            It wasn’t the best advice in the world but i hope that it is of some use to you. I have lots of wee coping mechanisms like that which i use to get my through the day. I take toilet breaks in work not because i need to the loo, but rather because i just need 10 minutes away from people!

            Thanks very much Olga, i appreciate that. We all deserve to feel peace and happiness. I guess the trick is trying to figure out how when you’ve still got a few years left to enjoy it:)

          • Olga Stewart

            I’m fine outdoors.

            Well save for the mozzies.

            They seem to love Irish blood (as they would bite my late dad, my Mom, and myself (all of whom were born in Northern Ireland) and then leave my brother (who was born in Canada) alone). *BG*

            You know, if I had to listen to that music of theirs, I might request that my office/office space/workstation be moved closer to the loo.

            Man, oh man!

            You are most welcome, good sir. :).

            And lastly, this describes me to a t:

          • Corndog

            I don’t think that we have mosquitoes here fortunately, but this last few years the spiders are getting bigger and bigger. They run across the livingroom floor with their DM boots on, and if you whack them they just shack it off and then come running at you. I’d say our local house spiders have more than quadrupled in size over the last decade or so. I know they can’t do me any harm, not physically anyway, but man do they freak me right out. If i see a spider i will scream like a little girl:)

            Unfortunately, as far as the music in work is concerned i am very much in the minority. There used to be people that worked here years ago that had similar taste in music as me but they are long gone. No one here now has even heard of any of my music, and not a single one of them had any clue who Chris Cornell was when he died last year. They all act like my music is absolutely insane. If Taylor Swift is sane, then i’m happy to be a little nutty!

            I can totally relate to that picture:) I will go out of my way to avoid being around people any chance that i get!

          • Olga Stewart

            Spiders with boots on?

            Sounds like a band name. Ha ha!

            Your current co-workers don’t know who Chris Cornell was?


          • Corndog

            Yeah! they have such big feet you’d be sure they were wearing DM’s 🙂

            Not a single one of them. Hell, even my mom knew who he was! When i told her that he was dead she was like ‘that’s the guy who sang that song with Eddie, right?’. She always remembers Hungerstrike:) My mom is actually quite fond of Eddie’s voice, and when she hears me badmouthing him she says that i’m being too hard on him! Saying that, i let her hear Can’t Deny Me and she (right so) thought that he sounded terrible!

          • Olga Stewart

            Your Mom is smart. :).

            I mean she knew about “Hunger Strike”. *BG*

          • Corndog

            She really loves Betterman!

          • Corndog

            You beat me to it again:) Sorry I didn’t get to reply to your other post before you deleted it. When someone writes a long reply to me like that I like to reflect on it before replying and prefer to do so on a computer where I can type properly. I’ve gotten so used to using my phone as my main internet access these days that I sort of left my laptop to fall into disrepair, didn’t update Antivirus etc and now it’s just lying gathering dust. I’m afraid to use it without antivirus but it’s so old now (running vista) that it doesn’t seem worth paying to update the AV. Normally I’d wait until I can reply on my pc at work.

            I won’t go into too many specifics so as to respect that you wanted to remove your post, but once again thanks very much for your kind words and advice. I’ll look into the magnesium. Sounds very interesting. The other stuff you mentioned becoming popular, I use that pretty regularly but it’s not as easy to come by here. I don’t drink, so it’s my main vice:) My brother has a similar relationship to music as the one you described and it genuinely baffles me. I listen to music all the time and don’t think I could survive without it. Music has got me through some tough patches in my life and if I had to choose between never watching TV/movies again or never hearing music again I’d happily choose to keep music every time.

          • makingconnections

            Don’t worry about when you reply! Feel free to not reply at all if you don’t feel like it…I’m fine with that. I’m on a big computer too most of the time…I love the big screen.

            I think I’ve said before that I used to care for one of the elders, a beautiful First Nations woman. She had her bed by the door, facing the sea. She told me we face the sea when we’re alive and we face inland when we die. Sure enough, if you’d visit here, you’d see all the memorial totem poles facing inland in the cemetery. Anyway, I asked her if she ever got nervous at night, being next to the door. “No, I never get scared. My mother told me not to get scared because when you get scared, you just get more scared so don’t even start and I never have.” I thought that was the perfect description of how adding secondary fear ups the level of anxiety. I tell children to pretend a wave is washing over them when they have an anxiety attack. Don’t fight it let it comes and let it go. It has an ending if you can not add that next level of anxiety…the “Oh, no, here I go again, I’m never getting over this stuff.”

          • Corndog

            I can understand that. It’s like that old saying about how there is nothing to fear but fear itself. I can get myself so worked up worrying about how i am going to feel about a thing or an event before it ever happens, and then by the time it does actually happen i am already so worked up that i’m going out of my mind!

          • makingconnections

            Seeing as how I’m preaching, there are a few more things I want to share.
            I’m better off when I meditate….I’m always falling away from it for some reason, even though I feel so much better when I keep a real meditation practice. This ideal is 20 minutes at a time, but even a few minutes of trying to be silent is helpful. It’s difficult when you’re anxious, but the smallest effort helps. Many people who meditate also are interested in Enneagram. (sp?) “If you don’t consciously prepare yourself each day to practice wonder and joy, you get really good at practicing stress and pain and anger and fear”, someone said.

            I was speaking to a person in the medical world awhile ago and we were talking about “profiling”. I generally am treated very respectfully by everyone in this community, very well really. The worst I’ve ever been treated is by a few doctors that I’d never seen before who I disagreed with on their treatment ideas. I look back on these times and I truly think it was my denim jacket and my curly hair or something. I realized that when I have to see somebody, I sit in the waiting room and say to myself: “Don’t piss them off, don’t piss them off.” I dress very conservatively, a linen dress, nothing funky and my hair is all pulled back. I didn’t even realize I was doing this until lately. Generally speaking, I really think most doctors don’t have the time nor the inclination to really care for their patients. I mean I’m a pretty respected person and I feel spoken down to, what do they do to people who are First Nations or deeply troubled or addicts?

          • Corndog

            I’ve heard people talking about meditation before but i really wouldn’t have a clue how to start. I find it very hard to quiet my brain (one of the reasons that i have difficulty getting to sleep at night)so i’m not sure if i would be able to concentrate enough to meditate.

            Recently, i have been watching these videos on YouTube called ‘ASMR’ videos in order to help me sleep. I felt really ridiculous and self conscious at first but i have to admit that it really does seem to help me with sleeping, if for no other reason, it gives me something to concentrate on instead of my mind being all over the place like a bag of cats! Are you familiar with ASMR? What do you think?

          • makingconnections

            Corndog, I hope you realize that when I said I didn’ care whether you answered or not, I didn’t mean it to be taken literally! I’d really miss communicating with you. I just wanted you to feel free to take your time in answering and not to feel pressure to address all I carry on about. It would probably be impossible…haha!

          • Corndog

            No i know exactly what you meant! I haven’t gone anywhere MC, and i too enjoy communicating with you. I’m part of the furniture around here at this point, and i’ll likely be here when they’re turning off the lights for the last time:)

          • Olga Stewart

            I just would like Chris to be able to rest in peace.

            I also would like his loved ones to find peace.

            But it’s been anything but this since he passed away. And it makes me not only sad for who I mentioned above but it also makes it more difficult to both process this loss and then to move on.

          • Corndog

            Yes i know what you mean. I think that people need to perhaps take a step back and let some time pass, and i think that perhaps it’s time for the never ending articles about him and his family to end. His wife should probably really consider taking a step back too and staying off social media. It doesn’t seem healthy…”but if it helps you mend then i won’t stop it”.

          • Olga Stewart

            His daughter Lily has deleted her Instagram account.

            So I think she is taking a step back.

            I don’t know that it will be the same for both her sister and the family members that are directly connected to her.

          • Corndog

            I think that people in general could benefit from getting away from social media. I really can’t stand it. Definitely more trouble than it is worth. I’ve never had an account on any of those platforms. I think it will do her good.

  • Cassie Clemens

    This is so incredibly disrespectful of Chris and his family. Unfortunately, there is not much the families can do to stop these tv documentaries which are worse than gossip mags. Seen it happen with other celebs.

    • makingconnections

      It’s a sign of our times….fans and the public generally seem to feel they have the right to know every detail about the lives of celebrities. It’s a cultural thing at this point and I hope it changes.

      • Cynthia Masterson

        You really are confused. You just said this after all the crap you type about Chris wife with no actual personal knowledge of her??? Is there something wrong with you?

        • makingconnections

          We’ve had people of your ilk on here before—new to the party and very rude and impossible to have a discussion with.

          I have a few friends who love horses and spend lots of time with them. Do you love horses?

        • Olga Stewart

          Iz there something wrong with you that you keep attacking people?

          If you don’t like an opinion, you can disagree with it.

          But then don’t make the person you are disagreeing with feel like they are an idiot for both thinking and feeling the way they do.

  • Ahhh yeahhhh

    This has to be a hoax. Paul Ayres?

  • Cristiann

    It’s a hard “pass” for me — there’s no way I’m watching this crap. It’s bad enough that Chris is gone (and the way he died still devastates me even now), but the last thing I want is to watch some dramatized re-enactment of his final hours. No one (except Chris) can know for sure what that last day was like for him, anyway. What he was going through, thinking and feeling, etcs … only he could’ve known that. This show seems to be very distasteful to me.

  • DanSwon

    He doesn’t look anything like him. This is just tacky and I will not be watching.

  • Olga Stewart

    It’s been a while since I seen you on here. :).

    How are you?

    • Renée Lynn

      I’m good, thanks for asking. Hope you are well too.

      • Olga Stewart

        I’m glad to hear that. :).

        And you’re welcome.

        Also, I’m doing fine.