Brother Opens Up About ‘Questions’ Regarding Chris Cornell’s Death: ‘I Struggle’

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Chris Cornell’s brother Peter has posted the following on Instagram:

“Happier times. 1000 years ago. These two guys never saw it coming. Maybe it’s the holiday season. There’s a weight that rides around with me right now. It’s probably a bad idea for me to be on IG. Every time I open it, there he is. In some capacity. Portraits. Videos. Performances. My little Brother.

I’ve not figured out how to process it. Maybe there is no process. If only I was a drinking man, I’d climb in a bottle. I used up all my escape routes long ago. So I get to live with the weight. To look at it from every angle. My mind raises all the questions and fails to solve them over and over. So here I write into space instead of trying for the sleep that might heal me a little. I make a lot of mistakes right now. Big ones.

I think my focus a bit off. I struggle with my self care. It’s sort of the last thing that crosses my mind. I know my Brother would want for me to keep it together. So if for no other reason than to honor his wishes, I’ll keep it together. I’m blessed with love all around me. My little family. A woman/Mother, a step son/miracle boy, a beast puppy/fish breath and me. And Chris all around me all the time. Your presence is felt little Brother. For Christmas. For all of us.”

Happier times. 1000 years ago. These two guys never saw it coming. Maybe it’s the holiday season. There’s a weight that rides around with me right now. It’s probably a bad idea for me to be on IG. Every time I open it, there he is. In some capacity. Portraits. Videos. Performances. My little Brother. I’ve not figured out how to process it. Maybe there is no process. If only I was a drinking man, I’d climb in a bottle. I used up all my escape routes long ago. So I get to live with the weight. To look at it from every angle. My mind raises all the questions and fails to solve them over and over. So here I write into space instead of trying for the sleep that might heal me a little. I make a lot of mistakes right now. Big ones. I think my focus a bit off. I struggle with my self care. It’s sort of the last thing that crosses my mind. I know my Brother would want for me to keep it together. So if for no other reason than to honor his wishes, I’ll keep it together. I’m blessed with love all around me. My little family. A woman/Mother, a step son/miracle boy, a beast puppy/fish breath and me. And Chris all around me all the time. Your presence is felt little Brother. For Christmas. For all of us.

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  • Olga Stewart

    I love this photo of the two of them. *big smile*

    And here is a blog post about mural of Chris: http://www.herbanlegends.com/blog/2017/6/6/our-new-chris-cornell-mural

  • makingconnections

    Peter, have you consider a blog, or some writing, or a forum or site where you could share all that you’re learning and let people know, as you discover yourself, how to help themselves at times such as this? People seem to gravitate to you and if you felt like you wanted to, I believe you could be a voice to guide those that are so bewildered by the hard knocks life throws at them. You speak from the heart.

    • Olga Stewart

      I know why I gravitated towards both Chris and Peter.

      Look at their eyes.

      You can see the kindness, warmth, and love in them.

      Who could resist that? *big smile*

    • Eleanor

      Great idea!

      • makingconnections

        Hi Eleanor:

        Sometimes people have gifts that they don’t realize. Imagine if people who suffer tragic losses had a chat room where they could read articles by inspiring and helpful people and someone like Peter could decide what to share and what not to and be in conversation with those with encouragement…and people could help each other as you and I have done on this site. The internet is full of possibilities!

  • Cristiann

    Aww, that’s such a sweet picture. They both looked so much alike.

    Stay strong, Peter. <3

  • jmal

    Can’t begin to know what you’re experiencing but you are in all of our thoughts coming from a place of love and support😊

  • QTPI40

    I love to read Peter’s posts. You can really feel how much he misses his little brother. I hope at some point he writes a book. Much love Peter!!

    • Olga Stewart

      I would love to read that book.