Billy Corgan Reveals How He Almost Died Like Chris Cornell ‘Many Times’

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Smashing Pumpkins frontman Billy Corgan discussed recent celebrity suicides like Chris Cornell, Anthony Bourdain, and Kate Spade on The Howard Stern Show on Tuesday. Alternative Nation transcribed his comments when Stern asked if he’d ever been suicidal.

“Yeah, many times. That period after the first album is sort of the most public period I’ve talked about it, but I’ve thought about killing myself many times. There were maybe three times in my life where I was like right there.”

“I didn’t know what to do, anybody who has experienced this I’m totally empathetic, I was having massive panic attacks. I would be in the shower, and my heart would start racing, and I was like, I’m losing my mind. Now I understand. It’s the worst.”

“I knew an ear doctor, that’s all I knew was some ear doctor, and he said, ‘Let me get you somebody.’ So later that day he sent me to a hospital, a clinic. It was the worst place to go, a clinical setting. The woman sits down, she’s very skeptical, it’s a hospital, and she goes, ‘So what’s the problem?’ I said, ‘I’m rich and famous, and I want to die. That seems to be a problem.’ I’m not asking for any sympathy, so anybody listening don’t take this the wrong way, but when you have success, and you have wealth, people who don’t have that can not imagine why you would want to kill yourself. So if you try to talk to somebody, even just as a human: ‘Oh, you’re lucky.'”

“Then she wanted to put me on a bunch of medicine, and I thought, ‘No, this is not right.’ That started this whole spiritual journey that led me to today.”

“Kate Spade’s sister, and I hope I’m not relaying this improperly, but her sister came out and said she didn’t want to get help because she felt it would be detrimental to her brand, because she had such a loving, bright [brand]. I thought how awful, and I said to my girlfriend the other day, because she’s in the fashion business, I said I believe we actually live in a world now where if Kate Spade came out and said she was dealing with these things, she would have gotten so much love and been embraced. I understand why the cubby hole of those feelings, why it must have been so hard for her to even imagine.”

He said he was dangerously close to suicide in the past.

“Somebody once gave me a pamphlet, these are the ten signs, and I checked off eight or nine. Give away your possessions, I gave away my possessions, you start fantasizing about how your funeral is going to look. I was obsessed with death. So anybody who is in that spot, please get help.”

You can call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.

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Brett Buchanan
Brett previously hosted the BWR wrestling and MMA podcast, interviewing pro wrestling and MMA stars like Kurt Angle, Seth Rollins, Quinton "Rampage" Jackson, Bruce Buffer, AJ Styles, Rob Van Dam, Jeff Hardy, Edge, and DDP. After ending BWR, Brett opened GrungeReport.net in May 2009. The site changed its name to AlternativeNation.net in June 2013.  Brett ran Scott Weiland's social media accounts for his final 'Master Blaster' tour in fall 2015 and continued to run the accounts after Weiland's death until July 2016. On Alternative Nation, Brett controls all aspects of the website and reports the day to day news.  He has interviewed members of Pearl Jam, Foo Fighters, Nirvana, Smashing Pumpkins, Soundgarden, Imagine Dragons, Nine Inch Nails, Queens of the Stone Age, Stone Temple Pilots, and The Smiths. Brett has been interviewed by The Wall Street Journal and on the Reelz Channel. You can reach Brett at contact @alternativenation.net